Yoyo I’m here after a month. Yay and yay. I think when I’m not in the greatest place I find it hard to blog… sorta like I find it hard to be relational. Been in and out and more often in the pit of recent-ness. I think I found it hard to cope for a while there after finishing uni… sorta not knowing what was what and where to go from now. I’m mega-stoked about finishing but yeh it’s still change and change is always hard. I think also I’ve been discouraged with ministry and getting a bit of a taste of burn-out. Just a taste… and it’s ok.

All that said God is and has been faithful through it all. Also my fam and Laura have stuck by me and I’m very thankful for that. I haven’t walked away from God or stopped praying or serving or anything… but my attitude hasn’t been the greatest and I’ve thought about giving up… I think perhaps I’ve come to understand just a little more why people do give up… why it all becomes just a bit too hard.

Last night I had an opportunity to speak at another youth group. I didn’t want to do it and could have said no numerous times… but I decided that it was an opportunity to help get out of the rut I’d been in. SO, I prayed and prepared and went along. At the start of the night I was feeling worthless and not up the task at all. But I decided I was just going to do it regardless of how it went or how I felt.

At the end of the night there was an altar call. I went up first, knelt straight up, stuck my hands in the air and cried out to Jesus. There was never any other way out and deep down I knew that… but being in a different environment helped me get where I needed to be: on my knees. God touched me, spoke through one of the youth leaders at the church and I came away encouraged and up for what’s next. Thank You Jesus.

This is all about You Lord. This is all about the Kingdom. This is all about Rom 12:1.

Recently I’ve also been identifying once again with the John Reuben lyric that’s below. You know how procrastination is the thief of time? Well… over-analysis is the thief of joy.